Debra Dietrich & I
She is an amazing person!
She is an amazing person!
I LOVE these finger waves she did! I can't wait to try them on someone!
Debra came to our school for the week to do a make up class for 3 days, then she did a free hair style class for anyone who had 95% or higher attendance and she did a show to raise money for the Andrew Gomez foundation. I was able to be a model in the make up class one afternoon and I was able to spend all day Thursday in her classes doing hair and make up on models. It was so fun and I was truly inspired by her.
At the end of the afternoon class on Thursday, she went around the room and asked what inspired us in her talk. My answer was, she told us to Do The Thing We Fear Most. When I said that, she told me she would like for me to tell her later what that is for me. Well, I never got the chance to tell her in person while she was here, but it did get me thinking. I have done a lot of things I fear or used to fear. So I was trying to think about that what it is now. So to start off, I wanna share the things I have done that were hard for me or scared me.
I used to be really shy. I learned to come out of my box and now I am not so shy. I open up to people. I am still nervous about speaking in front of a lot of people, but it's not so hard now. My self esteem has improved a lot since I got out of high school.
I was scared of leaving the guy I was married to. I took the "chicken" way out and I should have done it differently, but I am where I am today because of it. But I got out of a bad relationship where I wasn't happy and didn't feel loved. That was scary for me. I was divorced at 21. Then I was worried about what people thought about me. About leaving the life behind that I had with him and worried about my family still loving me, because I took a different road than they would have liked for me. But it was what I wanted to do, and then decided not to hide my real self from anyone. If they loved me then they would still love me the way I am now. This is the real me, just took a while to figure it out and not worry about what other think of me. And to not pretend I was something I am not. My family finally sees it, it took a while, but now we are more open about everything. I won't just give up un needed information, but I won't lie if confronted about it. I love myself.
The next scary thing, tho it's been the best thing that has happened to me, was falling in love again. Letting myself do it and scared of getting hurt. I got remarried and I am still head over heels in love with Cameron. I also moved across the country to be with him. But I am happier than ever :)
I have always wanted a baby. I was scared and he wasn't planned, being pregnant and giving birth was terrifying. But I love my baby more than anything and I can't imagine life without him.
I love being a mom and wife :)
Now, the most current thing is finishing school and working. I was scared and excited to start school and it's been a rough year and a half and much has happened in our lives since I started school, but I made it. I have 25 hours left of school and I decided to lease a station. That is really scary for me right out of school because I have issues..I guess you could say..about building my clientele. I am good at marketing myself for the most, in school anyway, and people like me and how I do their hair, but I am scared of messing up and someone saying something bad about me. Because in the beauty industry, word of mouth and people I have done are my advertisement. Walking billboards. But I am doing it. I want to lease and that's what I am going to do. I want to make my own hours and be able to be with my son whenever he needs me. Or be able to visit family and not have to worry about getting time off. And I want to be actively involved in my son's life and have time with my little family.
I have a great life. I have had many bumps in the road, but I am happy where I am at. I am a stronger person because of the things I have gone through and I believe a better person as well. I love my husband and my son, my immediate and extended family, my in laws, and my friends-new and old. I have great people in my life and I appreciate them for all the things they have done through out different periods in my life!
Life is good :)
At the end of the afternoon class on Thursday, she went around the room and asked what inspired us in her talk. My answer was, she told us to Do The Thing We Fear Most. When I said that, she told me she would like for me to tell her later what that is for me. Well, I never got the chance to tell her in person while she was here, but it did get me thinking. I have done a lot of things I fear or used to fear. So I was trying to think about that what it is now. So to start off, I wanna share the things I have done that were hard for me or scared me.
I used to be really shy. I learned to come out of my box and now I am not so shy. I open up to people. I am still nervous about speaking in front of a lot of people, but it's not so hard now. My self esteem has improved a lot since I got out of high school.
I was scared of leaving the guy I was married to. I took the "chicken" way out and I should have done it differently, but I am where I am today because of it. But I got out of a bad relationship where I wasn't happy and didn't feel loved. That was scary for me. I was divorced at 21. Then I was worried about what people thought about me. About leaving the life behind that I had with him and worried about my family still loving me, because I took a different road than they would have liked for me. But it was what I wanted to do, and then decided not to hide my real self from anyone. If they loved me then they would still love me the way I am now. This is the real me, just took a while to figure it out and not worry about what other think of me. And to not pretend I was something I am not. My family finally sees it, it took a while, but now we are more open about everything. I won't just give up un needed information, but I won't lie if confronted about it. I love myself.
The next scary thing, tho it's been the best thing that has happened to me, was falling in love again. Letting myself do it and scared of getting hurt. I got remarried and I am still head over heels in love with Cameron. I also moved across the country to be with him. But I am happier than ever :)
I have always wanted a baby. I was scared and he wasn't planned, being pregnant and giving birth was terrifying. But I love my baby more than anything and I can't imagine life without him.
I love being a mom and wife :)
Now, the most current thing is finishing school and working. I was scared and excited to start school and it's been a rough year and a half and much has happened in our lives since I started school, but I made it. I have 25 hours left of school and I decided to lease a station. That is really scary for me right out of school because I have issues..I guess you could say..about building my clientele. I am good at marketing myself for the most, in school anyway, and people like me and how I do their hair, but I am scared of messing up and someone saying something bad about me. Because in the beauty industry, word of mouth and people I have done are my advertisement. Walking billboards. But I am doing it. I want to lease and that's what I am going to do. I want to make my own hours and be able to be with my son whenever he needs me. Or be able to visit family and not have to worry about getting time off. And I want to be actively involved in my son's life and have time with my little family.
I have a great life. I have had many bumps in the road, but I am happy where I am at. I am a stronger person because of the things I have gone through and I believe a better person as well. I love my husband and my son, my immediate and extended family, my in laws, and my friends-new and old. I have great people in my life and I appreciate them for all the things they have done through out different periods in my life!
Life is good :)
Go Ila! You're an amazing person! You've been through some rough times and for the majority of the time, without the help and support of immediate family. And look at you now! You're completely in love with your husband. You have a darling baby boy and you're a great mom! Love you!
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